[DENIED] Permanent Ban Appeal - Ranch the Deer/Optoisolator

[Ranch the Deer]

-Player Information-
Your Steam Name: Ranch the Deer (rpreviously known as Optoisolator)
Your Steam ID: STEAM_0:1:110137590

-Admin Information-
Admin's Steam Name: [IJWTB] Thomas
Admin's Steam ID: STEAM_0:0:27507323

-Player Interview-
Admin's reason for banning you: "Multiple incidents of unwanted, overly sexual and rapey behavior toward at least 3 individuals w/o consent. Absolutely disgusting behavior that does not belong here."

Why should your punishment be lifted, and why should we have to trust you after what you did? (Elaborate - minimum effort will not be tolerated):

I'm not going to deny what I did. I won't sugar-coat it, I won't dress it in a 'guise or a blanket of lies: what I did was deeply perverse and was not acceptable conduct whatsoever. My behaviour was evidently getting oversexualised to an extreme degree even in the weeks preceding the ban, and I agree, it needed to stop, for it had been going on far longer than it should have.

That being said, it has been coming up to a year since I was banned, and between now and then, a significant amount has changed both in my personal life and elsewhere. The most important of those changes is that I believe I have matured significantly, along with the fact that I now know far better than to behave so perversely towards people. I know from personal experience that if someone behaved like that towards me, I would feel deeply uncomfortable and upset by it, and would want that person to be deservedly punished. There is no excuse for what I did, and I can only give my sincerest apologies to those affected for how I acted. To say it was unacceptable would be an understatement.
I have authored this ban appeal because I want to prove that I am capable of being a productive, proactive and supportive member of this community once again, and I know that the first step towards achieving that would be asking for a second chance. I am not asking for total exoneration, no, far from it; I deserve to be reminded of what I did and how it affected people so negatively. I simply ask for you to forgive me, and give me a fresh start, from which I hope to rectify my mistakes and move forward once again.

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-Offender Agreement (mark the boxes to agree)-
I have read all of the guidelines (found here), and am willing to follow them once more: [Y]

I realize that now that I have been banned, the way my punishments are weighted are different, and if I commit another offense, my punishment will more likely be permanent: [Y]

[Spooky Gamer 2012]

+Support, I forgive your actions!
After seeing what other people posted, you should REALLY stay away from this community, after looking at what you said in the Discord chat logs I am honestly disgusted that people like you exist in this planet, why not leave and go to another galaxy far far far far far far away from us, fucking ashfjsdhcftarfatydshcft66h7cftsytdfu.
-Support

[Coleslaw]

--Support, I do not forgive your actions!

[Mrtwister]

--support I definitely do not forgive your actions.

[Ander]

going neutral on this one

[Bero]

Alright so, before all of you think of supporting this I want to tell you what i've seen, Or been told for the matter.
This man went after a 14 year old girl, not to mention the kids on the server as well have seen or repeatedly seen this. Here are some pictures of this man spamming chat with random "unwanted, overly sexual and rapey behavior" shit to someone named "Snatcher" and two more individuals. Gonna be honest here I don't think I want someone in our server running around doing this so i'm gonna slap A massive  --SUPPORT

[Ander]

Alright so, before all of you think of supporting this I want to tell you what i've seen, Or been told for the matter.
This man went after a 14 year old girl, not to mention the kids on the server as well have seen or repeatedly seen this. Here are some pictures of this man spamming chat with random "unwanted, overly sexual and rapey behavior" shit to someone named "Snatcher" and two more individuals. Gonna be honest here I don't think I want someone in our server running around doing this so i'm gonna slap A massive  --SUPPORT

--SUPPORT DO NOT EVER COME BACK.
IF YOU EVER SO MUCH AS EVEN TOUCH SNATCHER I'LL SEE TO IT YOUR EXISTENCE ON THE INTERNET WILL BE NOTHING BUT A MERE PEEP.

[Sheeter]

Good god that’s terrifying to look at from Bero’s post. Don’t think you deserve a second chance, ever.
-Support

[Banjo Jones]

--support 
i havent felt this uncomfortable in a long time after seeing what bero posted
kindly fuck off

[Vee]

--support  fuck right off you pedophilic pile of shit

[Morphist]

dude.

[That One Snep]

-support I am speechless
Honestly wtf

[RetroCorruption]

-support You kind of like raped a friend I've known for over 3 years.  I don't think I can forgive you.

[Skeletor]

-support vile

[Ander]

dude.

[Jim]

--Support, You honestly disgust me with what you have done.

[Kolaĵo]

--support

[Panic]

--Support

[Awmax]

No. Disgusting. You should evaluate your own character and realize something is fundamentally wrong with you. Maybe talk to your parents about this. Absolutely repulsive behavior and it should not be in IJWTB. You may have changed, but few are willing to so much as give you a chance anyways. Realize that there are consequences to frankly unholy behavior and accept that in all likelihood you will not come back within a few years minimum (if ever).

-Support

[Mrtwister]

No. Disgusting. You should evaluate your own character and realize something is fundamentally wrong with you. Maybe talk to your parents about this. Absolutely repulsive behavior and it should not be in IJWTB. You may have changed, but few are willing to so much as give you a chance anyways. Realize that there are consequences to frankly unholy behavior and accept that in all likelihood you will not come back within a few years minimum (if ever).

-Support

Yes they are very unholy actions.

[Ranch the Deer]

Alright so, before all of you think of supporting this I want to tell you what i've seen, Or been told for the matter.
This man went after a 14 year old girl, not to mention the kids on the server as well have seen or repeatedly seen this. Here are some pictures of this man spamming chat with random "unwanted, overly sexual and rapey behavior" shit to someone named "Snatcher" and two more individuals. Gonna be honest here I don't think I want someone in our server running around doing this so i'm gonna slap A massive  --SUPPORT

Good God, was I seriously that perverse?
I know what I did was pretty messed up, but I didn't realise just to what extent it was.
I really do not blame you for not wanting me here ever again. If I'd have remembered the instances of this being so extraordinarily and unthinkably perverse, than I wouldn't have dared file a ban report in the first place. For what I did, I really should never be even allowed to leave the house, let alone play on a Garry's Mod server full of people.

Let me open up here: all through my life (and especially prevalent in my earlier years), I've suffered with various states of mental health, ranging from minor bouts of depression to full-on episodes which would last for months on end. Until recently, my life had been very unsettled, and I had not had any stability, which caused me to act in such a deeply troubling manner as I did. I suffer from autism spectrum disorder, which was diagnosed only earlier this year, and have traits of ADHD. which mean that I struggle with boundaries on what is acceptable and what is not, along with the issue of oversexualisation in my earlier life. This incident was isolated to this server in particular (though I doubt that is of any comfort), and was a melting pot of both severe emotional difficulties, my pre-existing conditions, and a whole truckload of rampaging hormones, which is what caused me to act so out of character to the extent that I was unrecognisable. Once again, if I had properly understood what I had done, I would have never even dared file an unban report. I deserve to stay banned, and potentially arrested for what I did.
My intention is not to guilt-trip, or to try and justify my actions. That's simply how it is.

As strange as this may sound, thank you for making me realise just what an unthinkable monster I was. If I'd have remembered this being how it was, I'd never have dared ask for forgiveness for such a horrific crime against this community as a whole.

Though this will be of little comfort to you all, I must once again convey my deepest, most sincere apologies, but this time I will not ask for your forgiveness, because I would not deserve it in a month, nay, a year's worth of Sundays.
What I did was so far past the definition of wrong that it could be considered a tangible offense in any country with any kind of jurisdiction, and I don't deserve anyone's forgiveness.

Requesting this thread to be closed. I should undeniably remain banned indefinitely.

[Ander]

Alright so, before all of you think of supporting this I want to tell you what i've seen, Or been told for the matter.
This man went after a 14 year old girl, not to mention the kids on the server as well have seen or repeatedly seen this. Here are some pictures of this man spamming chat with random "unwanted, overly sexual and rapey behavior" shit to someone named "Snatcher" and two more individuals. Gonna be honest here I don't think I want someone in our server running around doing this so i'm gonna slap A massive  --SUPPORT

Good God, was I seriously that perverse?
I know what I did was pretty messed up, but I didn't realise just to what extent it was.
I really do not blame you for not wanting me here ever again. If I'd have remembered the instances of this being so extraordinarily and unthinkably perverse, than I wouldn't have dared file a ban report in the first place. For what I did, I really should never be even allowed to leave the house, let alone play on a Garry's Mod server full of people.

Let me open up here: all through my life (and especially prevalent in my earlier years), I've suffered with various states of mental health, ranging from minor bouts of depression to full-on episodes which would last for months on end. Until recently, my life had been very unsettled, and I had not had any stability, which caused me to act in such a deeply troubling manner as I did. I suffer from autism spectrum disorder, which was diagnosed only earlier this year, and have traits of ADHD. which mean that I struggle with boundaries on what is acceptable and what is not, along with the issue of oversexualisation in my earlier life. This incident was isolated to this server in particular (though I doubt that is of any comfort), and was a melting pot of both severe emotional difficulties, my pre-existing conditions, and a whole truckload of rampaging hormones, which is what caused me to act so out of character to the extent that I was unrecognisable. Once again, if I had properly understood what I had done, I would have never even dared file an unban report. I deserve to stay banned, and potentially arrested for what I did.
My intention is not to guilt-trip, or to try and justify my actions. That's simply how it is.

As strange as this may sound, thank you for making me realise just what an unthinkable monster I was. If I'd have remembered this being how it was, I'd never have dared ask for forgiveness for such a horrific crime against this community as a whole.

Though this will be of little comfort to you all, I must once again convey my deepest, most sincere apologies, but this time I will not ask for your forgiveness, because I would not deserve it in a month, nay, a year's worth of Sundays.
What I did was so far past the definition of wrong that it could be considered a tangible offense in any country with any kind of jurisdiction, and I don't deserve anyone's forgiveness.

Requesting this thread to be closed. I should undeniably remain banned indefinitely. 

"This incident was isolated to this server in particular" 

You forgot to mention all the trainbuild servers and other servers you did this stuff on. You are banned from a mass majority of them.

Infact, What you did was SO bad that one of them had to create a new rule just because of the shit you pulled.

[Gronk]

--support 
I don't even think I'd need to explain why, but I'll --support it anyway.

[Myra]

-support

this man actually exists.

[undo]

--SUPPORT leave and never come back you fucking inbred pedophilic bastard